CherryRush

the fact i feel like screaming tells me your in the room just knowing you would answere if i called your name just knowing if i ask you for help, you would hold it against me knowing everything i say will be used against me for your benefit knowing nothing i do to will make you happy knowing i am the reason your struggling me just knowing i am the reason for those late night "chats" just knowing i am to the point of cutting while my tears fall that just hearing a caring voice makes me shake just hearing someone say they love me...and they are not family makes me hate myself more me knowing that in the end it is all just ma

She came home after six years for the annual sunday dinner, that involved her father and uncle. when her father recieved the call he was stunned but delighted his baby girl was coming home after running away on that night when she was fourteen. random postcards were all he had to know she was alive, and now he would get to see her. she arrived to to her child hood home with a shudder, a few hours before dinner. her mom had left home when she was six and her dad and uncle did the best they could with her but her pain was too much and she ran. after hugs and kisses and some hot coffee, she sat her dad down and finally explained where she